aku tidak pandai meluah rasa, tidak reti mengungkap bicara.

tapi berikan aku 1001 rencah, bisa ku teladani menjadi pengajaran hidup.

Thursday, June 30, 2011

emosi ?

adakalanya emosi mengatasi rasional dalam membuat keputusan.

kerana itu pengaruh perasaan.

andai tidak mampu dikawal, maka jadilah ia keputusan "tidak matang".

maaf atas segalanya.

Monday, June 27, 2011

you.

i wish i don't have to "let you go" from my life.
because you have taught me many things.
lessons of life.
hardships.
fun.
patience.
smile.
happiness.
sadness.
brave.
etc.
etc.
etc.
uncountable.

i never thought that somehow one day i will have a friend like you.
but Allah knows the best.
thanks to Allah for giving me such precious opportunity to know you.
as my friend. maybe best friend.
somehow people might see that i am a good friend of you.
and me, myself think that i am your good friends.
sometimes best friend.
but, i don't know, it is the same with you?
maybe NO for you.

i'm trying my best to understand you.
but maybe i've failed.
i can't be a good friend for you i guess.
perhaps you can enjoy your future days with the rest.
and let me alone.
lone ranger.
as usual.

i'm sorry i can't see you now.
to clarified every things.
just so you know,
i'm glad i've been friend with you.
perhaps in a future,
we will meet again.
so you will know the reasons.
if you wish to.

T.T

Friday, June 24, 2011

rasa?

kadang-kadang rasa kecewa. walau tahu mungkin tak sepatutnya rasa macam tu. tapi kalau dah selalu sangat ulang benda yang sama, so what? penat laaaa.

p/s : please take care of ur friend although she's just ur friend.before u loss her, forever. =.=

abc


in the state of denial. of something. unexpected. aishhhhhh. =.=

Friday, June 10, 2011

hati? tangan.

menahan sakit __hati__ *bukan. tapi tangan gara-gara bermain badminton setiap malam tanpa henti.haha. bila tidur tangan kanan atas bantal dan tak bergerak langsung.macam lumpuh pulak.*nauzubillah.

hari ni, sabtu dan ahad off dari main badminton. sambung minggu depan. =)

p/s 1 : i'm quit from bowling's team. sebab hari tournament bertindih dengan kejohanan debat smka. memandangkan kejohanan debat NC lepas juga saya tidak hadir kerana program lain, maka kali ini saya memilih untuk memenuhi tanggungjawab saya pada debat. lagipun bola bowling tak beli lagi plus saya tidak termasuk dalam pasukan yang bertanding untuk tahun ni. so bowling, bubye...jumpa tahun depan andai ada rezeki!

p/s 2 : hujung minggu ni tak boleh lepak bersenang-lenang di bilik tv sebab banyak kerja perlu disiapkan.assignments dan tugasan unit koordinator. bye hindustan! haha

p/s 3 : alahai hati...


Thursday, June 9, 2011

oooooops.

hyeeeeee!

dah berapa hari tak update blog.y? tak sempat online laa.

disebabkan training bowling tak on lagi, maka saya dengan ini mula menjebakkan diri untuk bermain badminton.

pergghhh.memang best sangat. habis kelas je terus main. tak sempat main petang, main malam.terus jadi taff laaa.*ceh perasan je.haha

walaupun saya masih lagi amatur, skill itu penting! haha. fitness la lagi penting.jadi untuk memastikan saya kekal sihat dan cergas, majulah sukan untuk negara!

*saya makin merapu. so off to sleep.haha!

p/s 1 : bila la training bowling nak start ni? tournament lagi 2 minggu. nervous~

p/s 2 : penggambaran filem akan start tak lama lagi, mudah-mudahan semuanya berjalan dengan lancar!

p/s 3 : tak sabar nak balik kk! =)

Friday, June 3, 2011

aisshhh.

i'm not feeling well since last friday. badan rasa sejuk panas especially bila malam menjelma.*ceh macam vampire pulak.



previously sejak duduk KK1 ni memang jarang guna selimut bila tidur sebab panas.tapi beberapa hari ni asyik berselubung dengan selimut.sejukkk~



maybe its because i'm too tired. every days filled with lecture and tutorial. plus intensive training for debate until late night. went out for programs during weekend, sometime weekdays too. during night, i have to complete lsp tasks and also update for upcoming programs. usually will sleep around 2 to 3 am. wake up around 6 in the morning.



somehow i feel having a tonnes of works is not a big problems. I can still enjoy myself. how? i dont know. but i feel satisfied when i've completed any task with the best effort for it.

but...



there's one day when i bumped into my friend and she asked me where did i went for previous days coz she rarely saw me at my room. as usual i said, went to training and have task to do. then she consult me to give time for myself. dont be too workaholic.



hah? i'm wondering. so for all this while i'm not having my own self-time? dushhhhhh.*aku tak sedar pun perkara ni.tapi macam betul jugak.



tiba-tiba aku terfikir, macam mana nak bagi masa untuk diri aku sendiri? haha. maksudnya aku kena couple ke? *macam mana la aku boleh terfikir soalan ni.hehe.tapi ada rasionalnya kenapa soalan ni yang keluar kot.mungkin sebab most of my friends dah ada bf/gf or bf/gf-to-be or even bf/gf-in-a-list. jadi ada masa yang dorang peruntukkan untuk keluar or makan or talking or etc. dan bila aku takda sebab tu aku seolah-olah takda social life kot.haha.kot eaaa, so ini semua assumption semata-mata.



jadi aku kena couple ke? hahahahaha. giler la. problem-solution betul. tak pasal-pasal nanti bukan cari masa untuk diri sendiri tapi buang masa untuk diri sendiri. nak text la. nak call la.nak jumpa la.aishhhhhhhhh. tak kuasa aku.ayoooo.memang sah aku takda masa untuk diri sendiri kalau macam tu.



heyyy...i'm not trying to say yang aku ni anti-lelaki *as what my cousins claimed me as that type of person* cuma it's not the right time yet. it's not easy to choose the right person tho. i've my own list of chriteria.its a loooonggg list! haha*again, my friends said that i'm too selective*hahaha. of course we've to be selective friend, u'r choosing for ur future and it has a long-term effects.not just for one day relationship within a short-term period. so being choosy, the pros surely will outweight the cons.



ok, this is my verse of love. *tiba-tiba aku jadi jiwang cakap pasal benda ni apa kejadah.haha.nvm, cut the crap, i'l share with you guys about my thought which is actually hard for me to talk about.haha



love is a very important things in life. for me, i can't just simply say i love you or even i like you to any person that i wish to tell to. why? because every time i started to like someone, i'l definitely do my check and balances.in terms of what? in many things, plus to committ into relationship i've to be prepared physically and mentally.i'l try to picture myself with that person in the future. sometimes i feel, yes he's the right person.somehow i feel, oh no,i can't. finally i decided to conclude that i'l never ever tell him about my feelings. because i believe in the future, as time goes by, the right person will come into my life. who? i don't know. lets give it to Allah, the Almighty. He knows the best.




p/s 1 : noted "that person" is not referring to anyone.



p/s 2 : haha. i dont believe that i wrote all this crappy things and posted it.shame~



p/s 3: ok, sebab nak bagi masa untuk diri sendiri saya kini sedang lepak dalam bilik tv sambil online dan ini pertama kali saya menjejakkan kaki ke bilik tv ini sepanjang saya tinggal di kolej kediaman ini.haha



p/s 4 : ini mesti sebab pengaruh aku tengok al-kuliyyah tajuk "pecahkan ruyung" tapi dorang berbicara pasal bagaimana membina keluarga yang unggul.sebab tu aku punya cerita tiba2 lari tajuk.haha






those fish live happily ever after although they are not in the water but in a car.haha


Thursday, June 2, 2011

SIFE

Being part of SIFE members gives us an opportunity to volunteer our service to the society instead of just focusing on the business projects that will be competed among universities around Malaysia.


1st June 2011. Community project at Pusat Pemulihan OKU Nilai.




let the man do the arts. give them chances to show their creativity.


and let the girls observed how they works.


haha.

hati.

hakikatnya,

dalam mencari rupanya kehilangan.

dalam bermula rupanya pengakhiran.

dalam berkorban rupanya terkorban.